Voices from the COVID Unit: Roman Abdul Satar

This is the fourth story in a 5-part series of firsthand accounts from those who cared for COVID-19 patients hospitalized at UVA Health.

"My experience with COVID made me think of nursing as definitely the career for me. I saw so many courageous nurses during the pandemic."

I started working as a patient care technician (also known as a clinical nurse assistant or CNA) in the UVA Medical Intensive Care Unit in August 2019. It was my first experience in a hospital setting.

As a PCT, we take vital signs, help the nurse position and turn patients, and ensure comfort for our patients. We are also responsible for keeping the unit clean and organizing all the supplies. We sometimes help the health unit coordinator welcome visitors and perform administrative duties.

That was our routine before COVID-19.

A Hopeless Situation

Due to the short supply of PPE (personal protective equipment), we were unable to perform what we were used to doing. So our nurses would do most of the patient care. I felt helpless for not being there for them as much as I wanted to. Later, when we were comfortable with having enough PPE, it was a relief to interact with our patients and help them be comfortable.

In the MICU, we always cared for the sickest population and witnessed death. However, during the pandemic, before the vaccine, we saw more death than I had ever seen in the past. It was emotionally draining to feel so helpless against the virus and not to be able to save patients after having done everything we could.

Keeping My Family Safe

Due to the ambiguity of the virus and the lack of treatment, many were scared to work with the infected population and rightly so. Many of us lived with family members who were especially vulnerable to COVID-19, including myself. My family was concerned for me to be at work every day. I was terrified of taking the virus back home to my parents.

Every day after work, I would take all the precautions I could and sanitize everything I was taking home. I completely isolated myself from my family by using a different entrance to the house and staying in our basement for the longest time. I would FaceTime my parents while I was 15 feet away from them. I had a mini fridge from my college days and I’d have my meals downstairs on my own and wouldn’t go upstairs at all.

Mentally, it made me feel better that I was doing everything I could to protect them. However, there were many days when I desperately wanted to hug my parents and seek support and couldn’t. It is still surreal to think back about all the things we did.

Thankfully, none of us got sick. We are all vaccinated now and it takes some of the pressure off. They’re proud of me now. They told me that they didn’t know if I was brave or foolish or stubborn. But they are happy that I kept caring for our patients and stayed safe.

Supporting Each Other

During the hardest months of the pandemic, I relied on my team. My coworkers became my close friends and family. When I’d come to work, I’d see how we all pitched in and did our part. It brought us even closer as a team.

Some of my coworkers came up with a mindfulness program where we could try to think about other positive things and get your minds out of the COVID land. We were surrounded by it 24/7 and that was all we thought about.

I was lucky to be part of a team that cared for each other and shared our feelings. There was always a friendly ear that could listen to the pressure we felt that specific day.

Earning a Master’s in Nursing

When I started working in the MICU in August 2019, it confirmed my passion for critical care. So I applied in winter 2019, before the pandemic, to the UVA clinical nurse leader program. It’s a 2-year accelerated graduate program to earn my master’s in nursing.

I started the master’s nursing program in summer 2020, right in the midst of the pandemic.  It was a lot to work and go to class. But it helped that the program was mostly through Zoom. I have my bachelor’s in chemistry and thought I would spend my career doing lab research. I realized my passion was to care for those in a critical condition.

My experience with COVID made me think of nursing as definitely the career for me. I saw so many courageous nurses during the pandemic and how much work they put in. I’m excited to graduate and be in this field with so many very impressive nurses.